Personal revelation on defeating the worry monster!

Yesterday afternoon I was trying to figure out the key to not worrying. I was going over Phil 4 in my mind, "Don't worry -- pray -- tell God what we need -- thank Him for all he has done." And though I can't say I was in full fledged worry (and believe me, I know what that feels like), I could feel the worry monster trying to plow down the entrance gate of my peaceful garden. Philippians wasn't really workin' for me!

It wasn't until after dinner when Heath read me Luke 12:22 (on my last post) that the revelation came. I didn't see it at first but kept feeling like the answers I needed were in that section of Scripture. I kept going over it, meditating, reading, thinking.

I pondered, "We know we are making the Kingdom of heaven our primary concern so we know God will give us all we need from day to day (vs31)." Yet, I knew the key was still bigger than this verse. I needed it to be bigger for me than simply the reality of God's provision. Silly me.

Then I read verse 32: "So don't be afraid, little flock. For it gives your Father great happiness to give you the Kingdom."

AHH HAA!! That's it! This is my key. God is Jehovah Jireh, my provider, your provider. It's a done deal. He provides simply because that is His character and He cannot deny His own character. HE IS PROVIDER. It may give him some pleasure to simply BE who He is. Or it may be that providing is old hat. He IS Provider, He'll always BE Provider and that's just the facts, ladies and gentlemen. It's like feeding my kids. I feed them 3 meals plus 2 snacks every day. That's roughly 140 times a month I am feeding my kids. And believe me, I'm not jumping for joy every time I go to the kitchen to give them what they need to survive. I don't hate it or despise doing it, it's just that providing them food is part of who I am as their mom, what I do, my job. It's what they expect and never question. It doesn't bring me any unusual sort of happiness to feed them 140 times a month!

But verse 32 tells us of something Abba wants to give us, not because He "has to" but because He WANTS TO! If I can just rest in the reality and surety of His provision, then I get to pursue and be given something of far greater worth and value than simply clothes, food, diapers, and laundry soap. I GET THE KINGDOM!!!!! Not only does my Abba want to give me a phenomenal gift . . the Kingdom, but it gives Him GREAT HAPPINESS to give it to me!! So I get the Kingdom and the pleasure of making my Abba happy!! Truly nothing could be greater than this.

This is the cure to worry. Seek the Kingdom, ask for the Kingdom, and receive the Kingdom. Then take the Kingdom to your sphere of influence! Wow Lord, THIS is what I long for! This is what I choose to fill my thoughts with today! Thank you for the Spirit of wisdom and revelation!