Ponderings

Things filling my brain lately:

** Friendship evangelism, ie: just loving people, really loving them. All my beliefs about simply loving people to Jesus, really loving people without an agenda are being tested to the core. WAY more thoughts on this, maybe later.

** Deliverance: it's for the believer. For ME. I've recently had a deliverance experience that affirms my belief that believers can experience deliverance from demonic influence. I've experienced this in the past but it's been a few years. The fruit of the deliverance has been miraculous and maybe I'll share more on this later. I'm always open to questions if I don't get back to this in blog.

** God's timing in our freedom. He's really not in the hurry I'm in to get everything worked out! And when it's His timing. . . it just works out when I cooperate!

** Love stories, true stories, inspiring stories. I'm hooked on them right now. Maybe for a reason, maybe not.

** Seasons of life. In October, the Lord told me I was in a season of aging (like wine). Being the NOT wine expert that I am, I looked up what the aging process consists of. Very interesting, very insightful, feels right on in my life stage. More to say on this too. Are you surprised? :-)

** I'm preparing to speak at an Hispanic women's tea. Feeling inadequate with not much to say? YES. YES. YES. BUT, I AM confident that the Holy Spirit has something to say. Please pray I'll stay out of the way for Holy Spirit to speak! It's March 19th.

** TONS of crazy thoughts every Tuesday and Thursday after spending the day at our charter school with people from every walk of life (well, not quite every). The Lord has put four women directly on my heart and I've begun to build friendships with them. I truly love each of these women deeply and I know it's the love of the Lord. Please pray with me if you think of it. One woman is a lesbian who is due with her first baby in 2 weeks. I spent two weeks in deep sorrow when I found this out. I can only imagine it was the sorrow that comes from the heart of Jesus. One woman spent 10 years in an ashram (Hare Krishna) and has recently decided the hypocrisy and religiosity and heavy guilt of rules and regulations was not how she wanted to "know God." :-) One woman grew up Methodist, then Baptist, married a Jewish man, spent some time looking into Hare Krishna and currently thinks there's some higher being/God but can't imagine there's only ONE way to Him. But she said she's feeling compelled to share the true meaning of holidays such as Christmas with her kids. Her son is Judah's best friend and Judah frequently tells me of his very "Christian" conversations he's having with him! :-) The last woman is New Age and talks often of the Universe setting things up, etc. She had a nervous break down in past years. She recently went off her meds and is trying to cope without them. We have made good heart connections in a short period of time.

When I'm at home with time and space between me and the relationships, I'm confident I'm moving forward with the love of the Lord and obeying His voice in these precious frienships as He's intended. When I'm freshly outside of a conversation or interaction or day at the school, I'm bombarded with lies. Our prayer group prayed for me last week and I'm seeing this in a new "battle ground" way and really trying to have all the armor on before I walk into things.


I forgot how good it feels to share from my heart. To type away without wondering how it will be interpreted. Thanks for reading. But more importantly, thanks for loving and praying!