Just for the record, in case anyone was wondering if I've reached perfection in the area of patience, love and gentleness, I have not! :-) Deliverance has not caused me to be perfect but it has given me the ability to choose. You might laugh or scoff at that, but sincerely, there was so much force behind this struggle that I often felt like I reacted first, only second to think through my choices. And believe me, I worked and worked and worked at consciously CHOOSING to respond in love rather than anger.
I have lost it a couple times since the deliverance. But it doesn't carry the same force, the same magnitude. And it doesn't come with the same level of condemnation and shame. I think it must be how other people without demons of anger must handle their tension and frustration. The feelings still come but then I get to think through what to do with them.
So that's the update. Still praising Jesus!
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