Deliverance

I have been delivered of the spirits of anger, rage, manipulation and control. Plain and simple. I was afflicted by them for 13 years and now I'm not. Here's the story.
I have been delivered of demonic influence that affected my life four times prior to this deliverance experience (in similar dramatic fashion) so this is not entirely new to me. But it's been a few years since my last deliverance experience. I'm confident there have been more than 4 times of deliverance from demonic activity around my life and circumstances but to a lesser degree than I'm going to share about now.
All of you know that I have struggled with anger issues my whole married life. First they manifested mostly with Heath and then the more kids we added, the more out of control I felt, the more I was unable to keep in tact my controlled self that kept the anger from being directed at the kids. More and more I found myself reacting in anger, impatience, harsh words toward the kids. Not always but WAY more than I wanted (I wanted no anger and no yelling and no harsh words). All of these behaviors were magnified in my childhood experience and I remember the day as a little girl I told my mom I would never yell at my kids. She laughed and said, "It's impossible. You'll yell just like I do." In my heart, I vowed I would not succumb to this pattern and for a few years, I was able to hold it together only letting my anger and rage raise it's ugly head against Heath (for which I was also very remorseful.) But as this pattern increased in my parenting, I was haunted by my vow to break this generational cycle that was passed from my grandma to my mom and now to me.
I tried Bible studies on self control, getting rid of anger, anger management workbooks, parenting books, prayer, memorizing verses about our anger and its devastation in our lives and the lives of the ones we love, confessing my sins to my friends and fellowship groups and still no lasting victory. Over the last two years, since our lives have been more outwardly peaceful and stable, I have been able to implement more self control. But if all the conditions weren't right (lack of sleep, bad allergy day, bad eating day, schedule out of whack day, etc) my default was often yelling, impatience, and anger. It was better but not changed.
Earlier in January, I came to a Tuesday night prayer meeting feeling defeated and deflated and again asking for prayer for this issue in my life to be resolved, or whatever needed to happen in me. I have begged the Lord for freedom from anger for years now. For lots of those years, I thought the lack of freedom was my own fault. But in the last two years, I felt that I heard the Lord say to me, "Emie, I'm really not as worried about this as you are. I know your heart and you will be free." But every time I heard this from the Lord, I'd say, "BUT IN THE MEANTIME I"M RUINING MY KIDS!" I wasn't able to rest in the promise of the Lord that deliverance was coming. Now I wish I had. Still pressing forward for victory and deliverance, but resting in the promise that He was planning to do it!
So at the Tuesday night meeting, I was broken again before the Lord and my friends as I asked for prayer one more time. Jonelle came to me with a word that she felt this was more of a familial issue than my issue. In my heart I agreed but I still didn't have victory. The next week, we had visitors from Germany at our prayer meeting. I had a prophetic word for them that they were like a high speed train and could take people in the spiritual realm where they needed to go faster than they would get there otherwise. The following week, I found out they had training in deliverance prayer and were offering to pray for any of us who felt they needed deliverance.
Now, I'll be honest. Their style and maybe even a lot of their belief system, I wouldn't say I buy hook, line and sinker. But because I was so confident that the prophetic word I had for them was from the Lord and because Jonelle had JUST pointed out that the remaining issue of my anger problem was possibly generational stuff, the timing seemed to point to this being an opportunity I at least had to take.
With some trepidation, I made an appointment to have them pray for me with my friends Mike and Jonelle being there for support! After some worship, we started prayer and then they asked some questions and went after "things." For a large portion of it, I felt like I had no idea how to cooperate with what they were trying to get at (or out!) and though I really, really wanted to be free, I just didn't know if I was willfully hanging on to something or what. We took a break and I voiced my apprehensions and then we went at it again. Immediately, when she started praying the second time, I had a very vivid picture of my mom wrestling with something and trying to hold on to it, actually refusing to let it go. I shared the picture and then they went after generational issues, soul ties and things coming at me from my grandma and my mom. When they were done, I knew it was finished. I knew it. I felt it release and break off me. For the next week, I felt like I was missing part of me (the BAD part). I could see situations with the kids through different eyes. I started responding and not reacting (things I was TRYING DESPERATELY to implement but always felt like it was two steps forward pulling a ton of bricks and five steps back!). Now I could just do it. I felt like the little pipeline that was somehow connected to me from my mom and grandma that allowed generational demonic influence of anger, manipulation and control was finally disconnected and now I was simply ME! ME AND GOD!
I knew things were different and that FINALLY, after years and years of begging for freedom, I WAS FREE from the spirit of anger and control! Still I was tentative. I wanted to make sure this would last. Six weeks later, I am still walking out the freedom from the spirit of anger and control! I no longer feel the need to manipulate, control, or be angry at my family (where most all of the manifestations of these awful things came to the surface).
Next weekend, I get to speak at the women's tea. I'm speaking on our inheritance in Christ. Our inheritance in Christ is SALVATION, HEALING, DELIVERANCE, and much, much more. I am 100% convinced that this inheritance is just as much for this side of eternity as for the other side. But we must press in with faith and patience to inherit the promises. Heb 6:11. There are verses in Exodus where God says he heard the cries of the Israelites for 400 YEARS! Why did it take 400 years for the freedom to manifest? I don't know. But there was an appointed day of deliverance! In my life story, I have seen this happen over and over and over. I cry out for freedom, sometimes for years. . . often for long periods of time, and then there is an appointed day of deliverance! HE DOES IT and I'M FREE!!!!! I LOVE MY JESUS! THANK YOU, JESUS! And that's my most recent testimony of deliverance! To God be the glory!